I'll take the high road
if you please
and I'll take the fall slow
and collect your teeth

And I don't appreciate
The things that are given to me
But just because I forget
Doesn't mean what you think it means

I've been telling people about you
ever since you walked out that door
I've been rooting at the way you dedicate time
to the things you adore
I wish that the time spent wasn't as a wimp
I wish that I was stronger
But I'll never be able to go back and see the change
in the long-term
I wish I could see the way that the days have passed
But I know that I'll never be able to go back
so much of the time I'm worried about what I'll say
I want to be taken seriously but not be
at the core of my search I just look for my own worth
I know I'm understand-ed knowing my own hurt

If God could reach out and pat me on the back
My self conscious side would just see it as a pitied laugh
When I turn to a light, or drink, or food, or body
I know even in meaningful relationships I won't be found happy
It's really dis-concerning to my addictive personality
It's like the whole world has swallowed me
and I've become a cavity

In these three months I should be
a Vacation Boi
but when I'm not preoccupied it just feels like I'm a broken toy
the battery's have run dry
the Audio Box sounds demented
I'm carrying the weight of the world
even though you don't know what my name is
My desperation and thirst
for something that is worth
my time, continues to bleed me dry
so Grant me, grant me
grant me independence
so I can feel some joy
your nervous young man
stopped being a boy
Maybe I should just quit
Give up, wring my hat
but I can't